I believe a fortnight is a long time to sit back and reminisce about any event no matter how significant or potentially grievous it might be. As such, today i think it is worthwhile to just throw a glance backwards to all that happened over the course of 2006 i.e a fortnight after everyone heralded in the new year. You may ask "why?". Well,the time-gap allows me to assume a fairly objective seating to consider things; also, my new year (i mean the 1st of Jan) was not all that great.
In fact, my new year was just as any other day, and certainly more gloomy than any of the previous new years. I do not know why, but i get this constant irrational feeling that i am leading a life which leads to nowhere. A void of emptiness which cannot be filled even by all the sorrows of this world. So, you see, its not all that negative, for negativity undoubtedly feeds on sorrow(and many other things as well)
But, i digress.
This is not meant to be a time to mourn and moan about the inanities of life. This is, i believe, a time to re-view the year gone by. What made it so nice for me? or wait a minute...was it nice?? Well, that is precisely what i intend to find out.
Here begins the journey to self-discovery...
Did i say self-discovery? Yes. 2006 was indeed the year that i moved ahead in my quest to uncover myself. It was a year to determine what is it that moves my life? And if there is something that moves my life, does it take me forward, or backward? I think i can honestly claim that after two years of horrible mental stagnation i inched ahead. Slowly, but surely. The reason i say this with conviction are a mere three words: Notes from Underground. I think i would forever be indebted to that person who lent me this remarkable book.
It put into words what i always felt. It said that which lay choked in the depths of my being, buried under years of struggle, pain and societal pressure. I do not consider it right to discuss this book- i won't be able to do justice to it. Suffice to say that it changed the way i look at a lot of things, especially those which cause stinging pain inside me. It has given me the freedom to pursue what i believe in, no matter how obscure, useless and zany it might seem.
This is almost turning into a book-review. Damn. I don't want to do that. It also suggests that i do not have anything else to say. 2006 in three words? !
Yep, just three significant words. Notes from Underground. Life-altering.
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That feeling of emptiness and leading to nowhere is with most of us. And that may not be bad coz it helps us wanting to move ahead/forward in life.
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Cheers and wishes for year 2007.
Welcome to most of our lives !! I think sooner or later we feel that emptiness and inertia in life. How we deal with that determines our character and destiny ..
Good luck in reaching any destination that want to reach !
Vidya
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Happy New Year...Guess what we all go through the phase you are travelling through..the phase when u feel empty as if there is nothing life but believe me Life has lots to offer and what really map new heights is the ability to to seek happiness in everything.Its like even if you have lost something precious to you, u can still feel happy about the fact that it came in ur life.
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